I kept eating Gabapentin pills all day yesterday to keep the drunk-like feeling going. Didn't really feel "good", but it was nice not caring about anything for a while. And stumbling around my house was kinda funny. At some point in the early afternoon I sat down to listen to an anime OST and accidentally fell asleep for a couple hours.
Later in the evening I took around 250mg of DPH along with the Gabapentin pills. I don't know why; it's not a high enough dose to meet the Hatman or anything. But swallowing 10 off-brand Benedryl pills seemed like a good idea at the time.
The Gabapentin eliminated the awful restless-leg-syndrome that DPH usually gives me, and eliminated any pains it sometimes causes in my chest. It seems like a pretty good combination actually. I played Road Rash on a Sega Genesis emulator for an hour, then stood up and it was so hard to move my body. And I could barely speak to my mom, I stuttered a lot and it felt like my mouth was full of marbles or something. I randomly would hear knocking sounds, like someone knocking on a door or a window, but I knew it was my imagination.
My memory is very fuzzy at this point. I remember sitting down to let myself fall asleep, but I remember doing weird things. Two or three times I went to the kitchen to make instant ramen noodles in the microwave, but after the microwave beeped, I would open it up and find nothing inside and get confused. Then I would realize, I didn't put anything IN the microwave; I just turned it on and left it empty.
At some point I did go to sleep and was woken by my mom because she needed to use the bathroom. I have to help her to and from the bathroom. I remember having an argument with her about the placement of a trash can, but I have no idea what we were so angry at each other about.
When I got up this morning and opened my laptop I saw that I apparently looked at a lot of porn, too, though I have no memory of doing so.
Well, today I've been swallowing Gabapentin like candy once again, and tonight I think I'll use more DPH, between 300 and 400mg. Working my way up. I actually enjoyed it when I think about it and I want to do it again.